i haven’t posted on tumblr in a while… but i guess since i’m in “twitter jail”…..
the struggle has been so real these past 7 months. relationship trials, financial trials, friendship trials, as every other trial you can think of… it’s left my confidence and self esteem shot and i constantly think of ways to end it all. that sounds selfish but until you’ve taken a walk in someone’s shoes you never know anything. people on the outside looking in irk the fuck out of me. You don’t know me or my struggles, you know what i allow you to know. and that shits real. my life is in shambles right now and i’m scrambling to put all the pieces back together. i can do it alone, but so much had happened that my strength is most definitely waning. my man does not understand at all. i just want to give him all my love but he won’t accept it…. it’s like i’m his homegirl and not his girlfriend. any “man” can take a female to get FAST FOOD and come over to chill and play video games and occasionally fuck her…. i want to be romanced and reassured at least once in a while. i’m a good girlfriend and i feel like i deserve it. i’m not demanding, i’m not high maintenance, i’m highly intelligent and i can cook….
by the way this was just a vent.
the way i’m feeling right now….
average to ugly looking bitches such as myself are expendable. if a guy is in a relationship with an average to ugly female and there is a disagreement, discrepancy or anything of the sort, the guy won’t even think twice about leaving her. but i guarantee you, if the bitch he’s with is beyond gorgeous, he’s not leaving her for any little ol thing….